Archive for February, 2003

blizzard ’03

February 17, 2003

this storm is amazing. it*s unreal.
it*s been snowing hard for a good 24 hours already. more is expected. we*ve got 1 to 2 feet already in places. and it*s that beautiful powder snow that is just go special. it*s almost 4am, i*m laying in bed listening to the wind wistling outside my window and the hail smacking against the glass… but the hail is so small, it*s the size of tiny little ultra-frozen snowflakes, that it sounds like a huge indian rain stick, and it is lovely.
so lovely that i had to drag my ass outta bed to write about it.


borrowed from a friend.

February 16, 2003

i took this from a friend*s journal… i just had to post it because it is too good to miss!

winter to the extreme

February 16, 2003

they are expecting 20 inches. holy fuck. and i just walked back from like 36th&springgardenstreet. never have i ever been so cold.

February 16, 2003

haha i just got challenged to a race over the radio.
my friend has a radio show on kdu (my school*s station… it*s really good check it out and he shouted out a song to me and then challenged me to a race.

February 16, 2003

i really fucking hate winter.

February 13, 2003

i wish i could go back to being 16 when i was drunk and fucked up all the time and just didn*t give a shit about anything, or anyone…

February 13, 2003

and everyone just says forget about him…
but it*s not that easy.

a friend inspired me to actually write what i*m feeling, you know who you are…

February 13, 2003

i don*t know… i just feel so alone inside. i fucking hate this bullshit made up holiday it makes me sick. i know it*s horrible to say but i get so depressed when i see people that are happy and in love.
fuck love.
fuck it up it*s stupid asshole.
there*s this guy. he*s everything i*ve ever wanted. he amazes me. he*s wonderful. he makes me want to be a better person. he makes me want to explore life and do things i*ve never done. for once i met someone who wants the same things out of life that i do, someone who shares my passions, my dreams, my goals… he just has such a profound impact on me. everything about him, it*s just so amazing to me, because it*s him.
and i hate him for it.
i keep trying to get over him… and trying and trying… and it doesn*t work. i ignore him and try to get him out of my life to make it easier. and it starts happening. i move on. and then he comes back, and my feelings come back just as strong as ever…
and i want him to feel about me the way i feel about him. i want him to know what i see when i look at him, how i feel when i talk to hi
and it just seems like i*m nothing to him.
he says things that are like a knife in my chest, but not on purpose and without realizing what it*s doing to me, becuase he*s oblivious and i*m too scared to tell him, because something inside me keeps saying it*ll never happen…
so fuck you.
and fuck everyone that*s happy.
may i repeat yet again,
…i wish you never happened…

February 13, 2003

me: you totally suck!
rob: why is that
me: because
rob: because why?
me: because you*re a boy and boys suck by default.
hmm… intelligent conversation…


February 12, 2003

my frogs died last night.
i am so very sad…
i loved them so much.
rip tyler & marla, i miss you guys already.